yesterday there was an atomic blast of emotion followed by almost too much destruction from the sound & energy that had been held within. is being an hsp a curse? perhaps that’s a little too strong. it just requires extra care of not allowing feelings to tangle, suffocate until they’re choking and all that you can do to gasp for air is to blurt everything out.
everything is fine. we’re fine. these situations are there to learn from. what i learnt was that there was more love there than initially thought.
this morning after a small amount of sleep, i tidied my house and began the process of looking after myself. i’m at that point in the cycle where i need to make that a priority again.
the winter holidays have flown by at such a speed, i feel like i’ve barely been awake @.@ a blur of reality and dreaming, food, kisses, love, games, several days of just being together, being us. this year will be challenging in more ways than one but with you by my side, i’ll give it my best shot. now for one more final lazy weekend before the rush of life begins again.
that’s how you make me feel~ not every single day, it would be naive of me to think that life works that way but when it’s just us, you and me, together, it makes me not want to ever sleep. celebrating an occasion which isn’t part of your life but is mine, meant a lot to me, even if the day was small in comparison to the usual event. i think you could tell that i was incredibly homesick so helped fill the day with love and fun e.g. deltarune, cooking & snuggles.
a certain topic prompted you to say that i have to be patient and that you just aren’t there yet ~ that’s ok with me but im struggling to stop accelerating at a destructive speed so a goal of mine is to work on that. work on not wearing my heart on my sleeve until we’re both at the same point ~ but then am i really being me? hm. i shall think upon it.
you know that i love you, right? / i know
at this exact moment it’s the best ever
(you seem to like the calendar but i must redesign april after ive finished dune).
“you’re the real one”
the things you say when i wake you up from naps really pull at this sensitive little heart of mine <3
